light through pinhole                                                                                                          rory on white-orange pad    


- born on a stormy Thursday (w/ Meralco lines falling over houses and roofs were turning into Frisbees)

- this uber-masungit little girl who didn't know how to entertain my guests during my 1st birthday party

- so fond of bahay-bahayan :: opis-opisan :: tinda-tindahan :: taguan :: patintero :: tumbang-preso :: mangga-mangga :: langit-lupa :: sweet violet :: Chinese jackstone :: jackstone :: ten-twenty :: rosemary-shake :: bazooka (the one w/ comic strips inside) :: gumamela plant bubbles and juices :: choknat :: cornbits :: dingdong :: pogs :: Princess Sarah :: Peter Pan :: tootsie roll :: white-rabbit :: Sailor Venus :: stationeries :: stickers :: Nancy Drew :: Jessica and Elizabeth :: >>>these are what my childhood is all about!

- always Yellow4 (while the rest of the girls were all fighting to be Pink5)

- one of the teacher's favorites while being the class bully's accomplice as well

- a San Miguel fan

- more good in Math than in Literature

- once dreaming to be a chemist because it sounded amazing (but I didn't really know what a chemist is)

- also once dreamed of being an artist like my dad but they told me that I drew a cat like a pig and my little girl looked like someone from the other planet.


- a coffee-addict

- normally underweight by 17lbs.

- an advocate of peace, love, beauty, happiness, and faith

- broke but happy :: poor but kind :: young (and overworked)and underpaid :: sane but overwhelmed :: lost but hopeful :: yeah.

- a twenty-two-year-old girl who knows what I want to do and where I want to go but doesnt know YET how to do it and how to go there.

I WILL (safer to say : I WANT TO)

- have my one-stop-art-shop! food, cinema, music, prodhaus, gallery, etc.
- teach at UPFI
- setup a business for my parents
- be part of an NGO
- do more documentaries and films
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Posted at 03:50 am by roreel

Sunday, March 08, 2009
stranger than fiction *


4:30 - cellphone alarms. snooze#1.

5:00 - cellphone alarms again. snooze#2.

6:00 - finally I will get up. sit by the dining table. prepare coffee. eat breakfast.

6:30 - shower time. try on outfit#1. won't feel like it. try on outfit#2. won't feel like it too. wake up ate (when she's not out-of-town) with all my kaluskos. try on outfit#3.

7:05 - realize it's late and i have to settle for outfit#3.

7:15 - finally leave the house

7:20 - battle to get myself on board the crowded (understatement) MRT or wait patiently for a comfortable bus ride.

8:30 - arrive late at the office. ask how my mahal and artemis are and if they've had breakfast already. log on to my computer. open my email. wash my mug. check my email. reply to emails. deliver various requests. retouch photos. take photos. take similar photos. look for images. compose images. take calls. make calls.


12:00 - lunch break. take a quick nap. visit the OAP website. marvel at and get inspired by how some people easily gets to do what they only want to do and make so much sense to the world for it. text mahal how the morning went for him and artemis.

1:30 - open my email. wash my mug. check my email. reply to emails. deliver various requests. retouch photos. take photos. take similar photos. look for images. compose images. take calls. make calls.

5:30 - pack up my things. play with artemis. scold artemis. hopes he understand me. prepares his food. plays with him a bit more. puts him to playpen. my mahal drives me home. sometimes takes out dinner and eats in the car (sometimes we eat before going home). listen to boys' night-out. get patient with the traffic. hold my mahal's hand. stares at the flickering car lights outside lance's window.

9:30 - arrives home. eats second dinner occasionally if i like the food. watches teleserye or whatever abs-cbn show is on.

10:20 - prepares for bed. plays vortex. doze off to sleep.

4:30 A.M. - Routine starts again.

Truth is - I am happy. I have all the reason to be - Dondi, family, friends, and a few enough cents. But truth is, also, I feel like I seem to have lost something about myself. Is it meaning? direction? passion that talks about long-ago plans and childhood dreams and goals?

Is there familiarity in these lines? I guess. These feelings come so occasionally. These are wake-up calls I guess - that I have to grow up a bit more again...

Maybe enough of the snooze button. Maybe it's time to get up to get the true things started.

* I apologize for using the title without permission or reference


Posted at 09:35 pm by roreel

Wednesday, October 08, 2008
Photos "courtesy" of AHAVIA????

Say, you have a business and you asked a newly acquainted friend, who you learned is a photographer by passion and profession, to shoot for you. You said that you need good photos that you can put in your website and use for other collaterals. And since your business had been operating for rarely a couple of months, all you could offer him for his services is an x-deal in the form of P2000 worth of GC sponsorship for an event the photographer friend was organizing. And since he was such a kind-hearted person. And because he just simply want to shoot away, he agreed.

P2000 worth of GC = how many number of setups; three (or four) shooting days.

So you got your photos. You've used them in your brochures. Flyers. And whatever collaterals you may have.

Then your business started to grow. You're getting more publicity.

You needed to send photos to this girl who was doing a web article for you. So you sent the photos by your photographer friend.

And you also sent them to this magazine publication doing a 1-page feature article on your, "say a spa," business.


Ahavia Spa just did it. Please note that one of the owners is a Multimedia Arts Graduate from La Salle. How can she not know about intellectual property rights?

I believe Ahavia Spa shall be charged accordingly.

PLEASE NOTE: All photos used in Metro Home's feature on Ahavia Spa are courtesy of Emmanuel Gonzales.

My apologies to You who doesn't want this post published. But you know me. I'm furious about people who take advantage of other people. This is about claiming your rights. This is about teaching them a lesson that they should've known in the first place. Maybe this is also a lesson learned for both of us. I love you.

Posted at 10:53 pm by roreel
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Thursday, August 14, 2008
dirty chucks

Do I need a reason

Today when I saw you

I knew it was just like the first time

When you met my eyes I came close

And I felt like the first time

To hold back my fear

and feel you so near

I've never been this far before

To hold back my fear

and feel you so near

I'm scared of falling into deep this time

Do I need a reason to tell you why

I'm singing you this song

Do I need a reason to show you that

I know where I belong

Whenever I am weary I lean on

this feeling that I have

I am so much stronger now

Thankful, yes I am

Today I'll renounce them,

the doubts and the fears I've been nursing

I'll fly like a moth to the flame

and I'll feel like the first time

To hold back my fear

and let you come near

I've never been this far before

To hold back my fear

and let you come near

I'm afraid of loosing and still I go

Posted at 08:08 am by roreel

Saturday, August 09, 2008
tags and more tags

1. I've come to realise that my butt: is, well, OK.

2. I've come to realise that if I love someone: I should be more courageous enough to tell him. And be strong enough to stand by him.

3. I've come to realise that I need: to be more organized.

5. I've come to realise that I've lost: my atm card

6. I've come to realise that I hate it when: there are evil people around

7. I've come to realise that if I'm drunk: -- I sleep

8. I've come to realise that money: is having a hard-time keeping themselves

9. I've come to realise that my mother: and I arenít the bestfriends type

10. I've come to realise that I'll probably always be: moody

11. I've come to realise that I have a crush on: Christian Bale

12. I've come to realise that the last time I cried was: just a week ago (it was a good cry though)

13. I've come to realise that my cell phone: needs a replacement even if itís an orangeish motorzr because I think itís broken already

14. I've come to realise that when I wake up in the morning: I donít plan the rest of the day

15. I've come to realise that before I go to sleep at night: there are sometimes unsent text messages and unfinished prayers

16. I've come to realise that right now I am thinking about: the need to rest

17. I've come to realise that babies: are beautiful and never fail to make my day.

18. I've come to realise that when I get on blogger: i read more than I write

19. I've come to realise that today I will: have to finish editing this lousy bellydancing video

20. I've come to realise that tonight I will: write on my journal after two months

21. I've come to realise that tomorrow I will: look forward to one of the most memorable, most fun, most spontaneous, and most lovely Sunday

22. I've come to realise that I really want to: rest then do the things I truly want to do

23. I've come to realise that who is most likely to repost this is: hmm. Couldnít think of anyone else.

24. I've come to realise relationships: is a continuous learning process; a series of risks; and a constant choice amidst changing circumstances

25. I've come to realise love: is the greatest thing one has to learn

28. I've come to realise food: doesnít really affect my weight

Posted at 01:51 am by roreel
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tagged by camyl

People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs & replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

Tag 8 people to do this quiz. those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who tagged them & cannot tag the person who tagged them. Continue this game by sending it to other people.

How has Blogger changed your life?
1. Way back in college I thought I fell in love with my "Ideal Guy (eherm he's apparently gay)"  coz of blogs. 2. It gives me venue to rave and rar. 3. Keeps me posted with friends' tsismis and thoughts. 4. Gives the feeling of being connected.

What do you do before bedtime?
Send a good night text. Doze off in sincere prayer.


3. What are you going to have for dinner tonight?
Uhm..haven't decided yet. How about something from the first food place with an orange-and-blue-signage? J


4. What is the ONE place you want to go to before you die if you had the money and the time?
Africa. Or one of those old civilizations.


5. Are you an introvert or an extrovert?
Introvert :p hahaha depends on the situation of course


6. What do you do in your free time?
Free time???  The little that I have - Write. Walk. Talk. Ice cream. Shoot.


7. Do you trust easily?
Not completely


8. What personal belonging do you have with you everywhere you go?
Cellphone. Wallet. Journal. Pen.


9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
this F** person in the office


10. What is your best quality?
I guess my ability to "read" things? My gutts almost never fail me. And they help me most of the time. Or I guess my being childlike?


11. Is being tagged fun?


12. Why so?
Because it lets me delve into myself and reveals something about myself I never thought I already knew. Ė Camyl, may I copy-paste your answer?


13. Do you prefer rain or snow?
Rain. But I don't like it when I have to be out.



14. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?

Fun fun fun. And really smart! :D


15. Poor but loved, or rich but hated?
This a question??? --- Poor but loved of course


16. How many children do you want?
I hope I can handle three


17. What's better: to give or to receive?


18. What do you feel about sex without love?
I don't care about people who's into them but I hate it that it makes a supposedly sacred concept meaningless.


19. Would you have 100% safe sex with a stranger for $10,000,000?
Uhm, maybe not. Talking about sex without love eh?


20. What would you name yourself if you'd been born the opposite gender?
I love the name Rajah.  

TAGGING: Sab, Armi, Addie, Alina, Dea, Eya, Mel, Dondi

Posted at 01:05 am by roreel
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Monday, August 04, 2008
unsuspected things ---



...but suddenly I realized I actually do love you. I hope our love will make us more mature.




Posted at 01:14 am by roreel

Tuesday, July 08, 2008
unsuspected things

just when my friends are in the mood for love, thus, in the mood for forwarded stuffs -- 
a dialogue from J-Dorama:

Mama: Before when I see a lobster, it used to make me so sick so I can't eat.

Mizuki: Eh? You obviously enjoyed it yesterday.

Mama: One day, your papa recommended for me to eat it. So I tried it and it was so delicious. I felt like I've already wasted half of my life.

Mizuki: Mama is exaggerating.

Mama: Absolutely not. Because I realized, encountering something unsuspected can be a wonderful thing.Mizuki: Encounter something unsuspected?

Mama: Yeah. Try on the skirt I didn't like; some would say it looked good. Go see the horror movie I thought I'd be scared of; it turned out to be fun. People will understand things better after they get in contact with them. Someone you thought you don't love originally, but suddenly you will realize you actually do love that person. Love will make people more mature.

Posted at 08:04 pm by roreel
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Sunday, July 06, 2008
ode to

Two interments in a span of one week.

I've always believed in death as a natural, positve phenomenon. It's selfish to feel sad. It's selfish to feel bad. But as humans it's also natural for us to get too attached to the things and people around us. Letting go then becomes such a difficult task.

Me, personally, I'm OK. But playing the role of a shock absorber to for one of your closest friend (who's more like a sister to me whose mom died) and for your mom (my tita just passed away) - both in the same week...

...sometimes being strong for others can also be such a difficult task.


Posted at 04:42 pm by roreel
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Friday, July 04, 2008
stuffs i dig up while cleaning up my e-mail archive

Thanks, MJ, for sharing.

Apples and Women

Wait for the guy who pursues you, the one who will make an ordinary moment seem magical, the kind of guy who brings out the best in you and makes you want to be a better person, wait for the guy who will be your best friend, the person who will drop everything to be with you at anytime of the day no matter what the circumstances, wait for the guy who makes you smile like no other & when he smiles you know he needs you, wait for the guy who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats & have no makeup on, & most of all wait for the guy who will put Jesus at the center of your relationship...because that's the only way it'll ever work.

Girls are like apples on trees-the best ones are at the top. The boys don't want to reach for the good ones because they're afraid of falling and getting hurt. Instead they get the rotten apples on the ground that aren't as good but hey- they're easy. This causes the apples at the top to think there's something wrong with them, when in reality- they're amazing. Be patient and wait for the man who isn't afraid of taking the chance of falling someday...

Posted at 08:09 pm by roreel

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